Monday, January 31, 2005

Ice

We just experienced one of our southern region's blasts of ice and cold. It began as snow and hail on Saturday morning and continued through the day as freezing rain. Everything was coated in a sheet of ice, thankfully not enough to down a significant number of power lines - like the ones going into my house! The last time this happened we were without power for four days.

As most people do, I say "it snowed" or "the rain froze." But that's not the right perspective:

"He giveth snow like wool: he scattereth the hoarfrost like ashes. He casteth forth his ice like morsels: who can stand before his cold? He sendeth out his word, and melteth them: he causeth his wind to blow, and the waters flow." (Psalm 147:16 - 18)
"Hath the rain a father? or who hath begotten the drops of dew? Out of whose womb came the ice? and the hoary frost of heaven, who hath gendered it? The waters are hid as with a stone, and the face of the deep is frozen." (Job 38:28 - 30)
Our wonderful God is in control of all things! He is all-powerful and mighty! Give Him glory for His mighty acts!

When our daughter was little and scared by thunder, we would tell her "That's God talking." Let us hear His voice in the storm and know that He rides on the wind, that He does all things. The winds and the waves obeyed Jesus on the stormy sea.

Mother Nature doesn't control the weather - it's Father God!

Sunday, January 30, 2005

The High Calling

Child of the Eternal Father,
Bride of the Eternal Son,
Dwelling-place of God the Spirit,

Thus with Christ made ever one;
Dowered with joy beyond the angels
Nearest to His throne,
They, the ministers attending
His beloved One;
Granted all my heart's desire,
All things made my own,
Feared by all the powers of evil,
Fearing God alone;
Walking with the Lord in glory
Through the courts divine,
Queen within the royal place,
Christ forever mine;
Say, poor worldling, can it be,
That my heart should envy thee?

~Gerhard Tersteegen





Friday, January 28, 2005

Face To Face

"Having many things to write unto you, I would not write with paper and ink: but I trust to come unto you, and speak face to face, that our joy may be full." (2nd John 12)

Oh, let it true of us, Lord, that we would see you face to face. Paper and ink don't warm our hearts or lift our spirits; only Jesus can satisfy. Linger not, nor delay, but come now, Lord Jesus, come now to our hungry, waiting hearts. Come now and speak to us face to face, friend to friend. We read, then look away, look away to Jesus. We lay all else aside, we endure any hardship, any trial, if we may but see you and know you and speak with you.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

No Cause But Christ

I had wondered what was my place in life, what good was I to do, what cause was I to promote. There are many good and worthy causes, and I bless everyone who works in them. But then I considered my own life and how Jesus changed all my values in an instant when He came in, and I saw that He was able far better than I to change men's hearts and minds. He became my cause, and continues to be, and will be as long as He gives me breath.

That's the thought behind this poem.



No cause but Christ,
No help but Him;
No war to wage
But self and sin.

No law but love,
No rule but right,
No good but grace,
No cause but Christ.



~Nick Bowen

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

"What we have been told is how we can be drawn into Christ - can be drawn into that wonderful present which the young Prince of the universe wants to offer His Father - that present which is Himself and therefore us in Him. It is the only thing we were made for, and there are strange, exciting hints in the Bible that when we are drawn in, a great many other things in nature will begin to come right. The bad dream will be over: it will be morning."

~C.S.Lewis

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Passion

"I have one passion - it is He, none but He."

~Nikolaus von Zinzendorf

Monday, January 24, 2005

God, who values the blood of His Son too highly to let it remain inoperative, has raised His altar in individual hearts, in the dwellings of the poor, in solitary places, in the recesses of valleys and mountains He has written His Name upon regenerated minds; and the incense of their adoration, remote from public notice, has gone silently up to heaven.

~T. C. Upham

Sunday, January 23, 2005

On Seeking Christ

I beseech you , in the Lord Jesus, beware, beware of unsound work in the matter of your salvation: ye may not, ye cannot,ye dare not want (lack)Christ. Convene all your lovers before your soul, and give them their leave; and strike hands with Christ, that there may be no happiness to you but Christ, no hunting for anything but Christ, no bed at night, when death cometh, but Christ.

Christ, Christ, who but Christ! I know this much of Christ, that he is not ill to be found, nor lordly of his love. I gave nothing for Christ. And now I protest before men and angels that Christ cannot be esxchanged, that Christ cannot be sold, that Christ cannot be weighed. Where would angels, or all the world, find a balance to weigh him in? All lovers blush when ye stand before Christ.

Oh, what is it that holdeth us asunder? Oh, that once we could have a fair meeting! Beware of a beguile in the matter of your salvation. Too many whole souls think that they have met with Christ, who had never a wearied night for the want of him.


~Samuel Rutherford

Friday, January 21, 2005

Me 'n Chet

I’ve been listening to country music since I was five and to Chet Atkins since before the earth was formed. That’s a sound that got inside me and rambled around like an old friend that had always been there.

When I was a kid I’d get up right close to the TV when Chet came on and try to see how he did what he did. After weeks and months of peering into the TV tube I realized that he was playing the rhythm with a steady up-and-down pattern of his thumb and picking the melody with his fingers!

Black blues singers had used that technique for a long time. It was countrified by the Everly Brothers’ father Ike, commercialized by Merle Travis, and gentrified by Chet.

The next step – and by far the hardest – was to try to do that myself. (The guitar was an instrument I took to naturally; I got my first guitar at 14 from selling seed packets I’d ordered from an ad on the back of a comic book. When it finally arrived, I was in school. My mother opened it and saw that it had broken up in the mail. She hurriedly glued the balsa wood pieces back together so I could have an in-tact instrument when I got home. That flimsy instrument was the beginning of my love affair with the guitar that has been such a satisfaction to my heart.) But it was never practice to me; it’s not practice doing what you love – it’s play, it’s time well spent, it’s fun.)

I finally got the thumb working out a steady rhythm, but the fingers didn’t coordinate with it the way I wanted; I couldn’t get them to strike the strings simultaneously with the thumb. But that was OK – I made good music alternating the thumb and fingers. Gradually I was able to synchronize my playing so that the thumb and fingers could hit the strings with the thumb or independently of it.

Just like Chet. Well, not exactly – there’s never been anyone just like Chet. But I picked out his songs and play them to this day. “Salty Dog Rag” and “Freight Train” still echo in my house.

I play the guitar with finger picks; since learning how to finger pick, I have never been happy playing with a flat pick. Chet used a thumb pick and his finger nails. He said the guitar is an instrument meant to be played with the fingers. I never was able to use my nails.

I saw Chet perform in Charlotte with the Charlotte Symphony Orchestra on his final tour. He had aged, but he was the same Chet I had seen on TV – relaxed, confident, friendly – and the master of his instrument. It was the event of a lifetime for me; I still have the ticket stub.

He passed away not long after that. No one has eulogized the man like Garrison Keilor:

"He played guitar in a style that hadn't been seen before, with a thumb pick for the bass note and two fingers to play the contrapuntal melody, and at a time when guitarists were expected to be flashy and play "Under The Double Eagle" with the guitar up behind their head, this one hunched down over the guitar and made it sing, made a melody line that was beautiful and legato. A woman wrote, who saw him play in a roadhouse in Cincinnati in 1946, "He sat hunched in the spotlight and played and the whole room suddenly got quiet. It was a drinking and dancing crowd, but there was something about Chet Atkins that could take your breath away."

"He liked to be alone backstage. He liked it quiet and calm in the dressing room and he counted on George Lunn to make it that way. I remember him backstage, alone, walking around in the cavernous dark of some opera house out west, holding the guitar, playing, singing to himself; he needed to be alone with himself and get squared away, because the Chet people saw on stage was the same Chet you hung around with in his office, joking with Paul about having a swimming pool shaped like a guitar amp, the joke about "By the time I learned I couldn't tune very well, I was too rich to care," and singing "Would Jesus Wear A Rolex," and "I Just Can't Say Goodbye" and ending the show with his ravishing beautiful solo, "Vincent," the audience sitting in rapt silence. It was all the same Chet who sat at home with Leona, watching a golf tournament with the sound off, and playing his guitar, a long stream-of-consciousness medley in which twenty or thirty tunes came together perfectly, as in a dream, his daddy's songs and the Banks of the Ohio and Recuerdos de la Alhambra and Smile and Stephen Foster and Boudleaux Bryant and the Beatles and Freight Train, one long sparkling stream of music, as men in plaid pants hit their long high approach shots in a green paradise."

"This man was a giant himself. He was the guitar player of the 20th Century. He was the model of who you should be and what you should look like. You could tell it whenever he picked up a guitar, the way it fit him. His upper body was shaped to it, from a lifetime of playing: his back was slightly hunched, his shoulders rounded, and the guitar was the missing piece. He was an artist and there was no pretense in him; he never waved the flag or held up the cross or traded on his own sorrows. He was the guitarist. His humor was self-deprecating; he was his own best critic. He inspired all sorts of players who never played anything like him. He was generous and admired other players' work and he told them so. He had a natural reserve to him, but when he admired people, he went all out to tell them about it. And because there was no deception in him, his praise meant more than just about anything else. If Chet was a fan of yours, you never needed another one."

I miss him.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

The Task

To learn, and yet to learn, whilst life goes by,
So pass the student's days;
And thus be great, and do great things, and die,
And lie embalmed with praise -

My work is but to lose and to forget,
Thus small, despised to be;
All to unlearn - this task before me set
Unlearn all else but Thee.

~Gerhard Tersteegen

Monday, January 17, 2005

The Face of Christ

What can strip the seeming glory
From the idols of the earth?
Not a sense of right and duty,
But a sight of peerless worth.
'Tis the look that melted Peter,
'Tis the face that Stephen saw,
'Tis the heart that wept with Mary
Can alone from idols draw.
Draw, and win, and fill completely,
Till the cup o'erflows it's brim.
What have we to do with idols
Since we've companied with Him?

~J. Stuart Holden

Saturday, January 15, 2005

May He Look Upon Us

"And the Lord turned, and looked upon Peter." (Luke 22:61)

Whene'er my careless hands hang down,
O let me see thy gathering frown,
And feel thy warning eye;
And starting cry from ruin's brink
Save, Jesus, or I yield, I sink,
O save me, or I die!

If near the pit I rashly stray,
Before I wholly fall away,
The keen conviction dart!
Recall me by that pitying look,
That kind, upbraiding glance, which broke
Unfaithful Peter's heart.

In me thine utmost mercy show,
And make me like thyself below,
Unblameable in grace;
Ready prepared and fitted here,
By perfect holiness, to appear
Before thy glorious face.
~Charles Wesley

Thursday, January 13, 2005

One Look

At that moment, while he was still speaking, the cock crowed. The Lord turned and looked at Peter. (Luke 22:60-61)

This quote from Matthew Henry puts that look into a whole new light. I had always thought of it as a harsh look with judgment in it. But Matthew Henry explains it just the way I think Jesus would really have done it!

"Christ looked upon Peter, not doubting but that Peter would soon be aware of it; for he knew that, though he had denied him with his lips, yet his eye would still be towards him. Though Peter had now been guilty of a very great offence, Christ would not call to him, lest he should shame him or expose him; he only gave him a look which none but Peter would understand the meaning of, and it had a great deal in it. It was a significant look: it signified the conveying of grace to Peter's heart, to enable him to repent; the crowing of the cock would not have brought him to repentance without this look, nor will the external means without special efficacious grace. Power went along with this look, to change the heart of Peter, and to bring him to himself, to his right mind."
The next time we slip, let us remember that look and receive it ouselves as enabling grace to get us back on track. There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus - we are accepted in the beloved.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

God of Wonders

By no means am I fond of spiders, but a few years ago we watched in fascination as a small, brown spider spun her web, night after sultry summer night, over the large glass pane on the outside of our kitchen door. As evening fell we saw her begin by attaching a strand to each corner of the pane, then scurry up and down and back and forth to spin the familiar-looking web.

My aversion to spiders temporarily suspended, I did a little research to find out more about this creature that had decided to share our house with us. I learned that she had 36 spinnerets on her abdomen with which she produced silken strands of varying lengths and stickiness. She has to weave strands with no sticky substance on them among the sticky ones so she can walk around and build her architectural creation without getting stuck in it herself.

Some spiders send a strand of silk from a tree or bush into the wind, which catches the strand and carries it to another tree or bush. That explains the webs I see in my back yard stretching from tree to tree. I had wondered if the spider climbed up and down trees and across the grass while spinning a strand, but now I know she employs the elements to help her build her spidery grocery store (gnats and mosquitos on aisle two, flies on aisle four).

While I do wonder about how an evolutionist would explain the development of even one spinneret in the abdomen that could secrete smooth and sticky strands of silk, let alone thirty six of them, what occupies my mind most of all concerning this is how this development would engender the behavior to take advantage of it and to pass that knowledge to the rest of the species.

Assume for a minute that this mutation did occur, that a sticky strand of silk was spun in a manner that trapped an unlucky traveler in it's grasp. Assume that the evolving spider surmised to wrap it's prey in silk. Assume also that she had the wherewithal to inject lethal venom into the tender morsel awaiting her to consume it (that would entail already possessing the venom and the physical means of injecting it). Assume that this spider then figured that the more strands she had, the better, so she spun not just a single strand but several into a web with greater catching power.

Those are a lot of assumptions, but I have to make them (not believe them, just assume them) to get to the point that really interests me: how did this learned behavior get passed on to the rest of the arachnid family? Did our pioneering spider which spun the first web not only figure out how to use it herself but somehow taught other spiders what she had learned? Did she become a teacher in spider school? Did other spiders in the neighborhood see what she had done and decide to try it for themselves? Did she teach this behavior to her own children? (That would be impossible, because she dies after giving birth.)

The question raised here is whether or not learned behavior becomes a part of the gene pool. If someone should answer yes to that question, then I have to wonder why I needed to go to school to learn the same things my father and mother knew. If learned behavior is passed to succeeding generations I should only have had to learn about new developments since my parents graduated - who the intervening presidents were, what new countries there were in the world, etc.

If my little spider inherited learned knowledge, why was I born with only the abilities to eat, sleep, crawl, and make a mess? Why did I have to go to 12 years of school and 4 years of college (at no small expense) to learn what my father already knew? Why did my children have to go to school? Why do I have to train each dog I have to sit, stay, come, heel, and be quiet? Why can't I teach a cat anything? (Wait - that's a different story altogether!)

The answer is obvious - learned behavior does not get passed to succeeding generations. This means that my spider's web-spinning abilities were not learned but were given to her by Divine design. The Great Architect of the universe made my spider with all her spidery abilities built in and instinctual.

No, I'm still not really fond of spiders. But I love my Father for the wonderful world He made and all the creatures that dwell in it.


Monday, January 10, 2005

Abraham

One thing that intrigues me about this poem is the reference to Jesus being "caught in the thicket of God's love." I see Him helpless, defenseless, the crown of thorns on his head, nailed to the cross - the final sacrifice for all men for all time, God's love poured out for guilty mankind. Jesus was so committed to this thing that He willingly placed Himself in that thicket of thorns and nails and became as helpless and defenseless as Abraham's ram. Oh, yes, He could have called ten thousand angels, but He chose not to, such was His great love for us, the thicket of God's love.

Let that love wash over you as you read this poem.

"Abraham, O Abraham," the voice of God so clearly came,
"Get thee to Moriah and sacrifice unto my Name.
Take thy son, thine only son, and make an offering unto me;
Isaac, whom thou lovest so, thy sacrificial lamb shall be."

~In calm obedience he arose at the dawning of the morn,
Took the son of promise who in his later years was born ~

"O father, tell me father, tell, where is the lamb that we shall slay?"
Abraham with trusting heart said "God will provide a lamb today."
So to the mountain top they went; he laid the wood upon his son
And laid him on the altar there that the will of God be done.

With knife raised up and held aloft and face awash with bitter tears
He was prepared to pay the cost and give to God his son so dear.
But as the knife plunged downward, lo, the voice of God rang true and clear -
"Lay not thine hand upon the lad for now I know you hold me dear."

~And in a thicket caught by the horns Abraham there saw a ram;
Isaac rose with shouts of joy; God did provide the lamb ~

In type and shadow we can see and, oh, the sight is glorious,
Far down the years to Calvary where Jesus was the Lamb for us.
God took His Son, His only Son, and laid Him on the cruel tree;
Caught in the thicket of God's love, He was slain for you and me.


~Nick Bowen

Friday, January 07, 2005

Heaven On Earth - Part 3

“And the twelve gates were twelve pearls; every several gate was of one pearl.” (Rev. 21:21a)

I firmly believe that Scripture is a unified whole and that the Bible agrees with itself. Accordingly, the book of Revelation tracks with the other books of the Bible – it does not, after reading about the life of Jesus in the Gospels and of how to attain to life in the Spirit in the Epistles - send us off on a tangent separate and apart from that which we have previously read to contemplate strange and bizarre end-of-the-world scenarios.

A recurring theme in the New Testament is that of suffering leading to the Lord’s glory:

“If so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together." (Rom. 8:17b)

“And our hope of you is stedfast, knowing that as ye are partakers of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation.” (2 Cor. 1:7)

“If we suffer, we shall also reign with him.” (2 Tim. 2:12a)

“But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.” (1 Peter 4:13)

Seeing and knowing God as all-powerful and all-loving at the same time, we can see that He ordains our circumstances to conform us to the image of His Son (Rom. 8:28, 29). As we willingly embrace our circumstances instead of rejecting them as the devices of the enemy to make us miserable, we enter into His sufferings, and His sufferings work in us the full measure of His glory. And what child of God does not want to see His glory?

The gates of pearl tell the same story. A pearl begins as a grain of sand gets lodged within an oyster. Because the grain of sand is a great irritation to the oyster, it secretes the milky liquid around the sand, gradually forming the pearl. What began as a nuisance ends up a great treasure. Even so, as we allow our circumstances to bring out the sweetness of the Lord within us, we find greater measures of the Lord’s glory revealed to us.

The gates of pearl are for the Lord’s entrance into our inner man, not for our entrance into a Disneylandesque theme park in the sky. (Oh, there will be heaven – and it will be so much more wonderful than we have ever imagined it to be. There will be a greater attraction than pearly gates and golden streets - there will be Jesus.) “Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the king of glory shall come in.” (Psalm 24:7)

May the Lord of glory find an entrance into our lives as we yield to the circumstances He brings our way.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

John Upperman's Blog

http://uppermansblog.blogspot.com

I came across John Upperman's blog. He's in the Army National Guard and just got sent to Iraq for a year. He's going to post about what he sees and does and about the good things happening there.

Cubicle Poem

I've enhanced "Ode To A Cubicle" at the end - check the last 3 lines.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Ode To A Cubicle

To the tune of "O, Tannenbaum."

Oh cubicle, my cubicle, how lovely are your window panes.
The mottled carpet on the floor hides all my drink and coffee stains.
Your walls of grey hold tacks and pins,
Acoustically, they dim the din.
My cozy corporate cattle car, my home away from home you are.

I hide here from my manager and live like a huate connoisseur,
With cookies, cakes and diet Cokes;
I draw cartoons and make up jokes.
I'm sitting ergonomically
And thriving gastronomically.
At four o'clock I'll rise and go, but I'll come back again, you know.

Yes I'll come back, my cubicle; within your fond embrace I'll be,
My little place of office space, my corporate domesticity.
I'll drape your walls with photographs
And poems like this to give me laughs.
If I get moved to another floor
That means I'll have one cubicle more.
And when I die I'll ask that I be buried 'neath my cubicii.

~by me

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Fooooooooooooooooooooooooooood

I have to report that there's more to me this year than there was last year, after the surfeit of holiday food in the office, at home, in restaurants, at friends' houses - everywhere. I am because I eat. I'm in a food coma. If it had chocolate in it, on it, or around it, I ate it. If it was a cookie, cake, or candy, I ate it.

I have a theory that the reason we have to ride bicycles and walk treadmills to nowhere is because we've taken the exercise out of our jobs. In the olden days the pioneers had to haul rocks, chop down trees, plow fields, and generally overexert themselves to eke out a living and survive on the frontier (not to mention fighting indians, square dancing, building barns and log cabins, etc.). Today we (I mean me and probably you, if you're reading this) sit at desks and don't exercise anything more than our fingers doing stuff like I'm doing right now. And I'm getting more exercise typing this than you are reading it! Then, after work (!), we go home and sit on the couch.

So what happened? Where did the exercise go? It went out the window and we need to bring it back in. My idea is to require office workers to power their own workstations by means of pedal-powered generators. We would sit at our desks, feet on pedals, and actually exert some energy turning the pedals to provide electricity for our computer, lights, electric pencil sharpeners, electric staplers, clocks, coffee pots, fans, heaters, and whatever else we use. (We probably wouldn't even need the heaters then.)

Sounds like a great idea, doesn't it? That way, we wouldn't have to go to the gym after work; we could just go home and be a couch potato because we'd have already gotten our share of exercise. Imagine that, being a couch potato and not feeling guilty about it!

Howsomever, short of the pedal thing, it's back to the gym. Maybe I'll see you there.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

My Testimony

I was raised in a wonderful home, with thoughtful, kind and loving parents. I had no disadvantages.

I never gave God a second thought (let alone a first thought). I went to Sunday School for the majority of my childhood and youth but saw no connection or relevance to my life. I said that God wasn’t dead because there never was a God that could die.

I married the love of my life and adopted her two wonderful sons. We had a daughter who was born with a near-terminal condition; she required surgery at six days old. The doctor at Mt. Sinai Hospital in Manhattan gave her a twenty percent chance of survival – he said it was going to be risky and “bloodier than hell.” He gave us a day to prepare ourselves.

That night, I prayed for the first time in my life. I felt nothing except the utmost powerlessness to control and keep the one thing I wanted more than anything else in the world – that little girl. After four hours of surgery the doctor told me "You’ve got your little girl back, and she’s just beautiful. " The condition he had seen on the X-Ray had changed, and he was able to operate successfully.

We then knew that God was real, and we tried to follow Him as best we knew how. We never equated Jesus with God, and still saw no relevance of Jesus to daily life.

One night a year and a half later, as I was going to sleep, I heard the name of Jesus in my ear three times – “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.” When I woke up the next morning I felt I was inside a cocoon – a covering of peace, comfort, love and joy. Sitting at my desk that morning at Chase Manhattan Bank’s operations center in downtown Manhattan, trying to solve a data flow problem and wondering what all was happening to me, He spoke to me again, this time from within, and said “I am Jesus.”

I’ve never heard voices before or since, but that made sense to me – if Jesus were real, this is what He’d be like.

I went to my normal lunch of hamburgers and beer with my buddy, but found for some strange reason that beer had lost it’s attraction to me. This was strange because there wasn’t anything I liked more than beer. (Although I wouldn’t admit it at the time, my drinking had gotten out of control; once I started, I couldn’t stop. I had woken up twice someplace not able to remember how I got there.)

I had to go to my own promotion party that evening after work. I didn’t even want the scotch I would normally order, even though my co-workers were hosting me at my own party. Free drinks and I didn’t want them! I drank one, feeling pressure to fit in with the group. I left the party as soon as socially acceptable.

That evening I told my wife “Wait ‘til you hear what happened to me today.” She said “No, honey, let me tell you what happened to me – Jesus came into my heart today.”

From that day to this I realize that Jesus is a person whom I can know, who loves and accepts me regardless of my condition and attitude toward Him. I didn’t have to change myself to be accepted by Him – He loved me first and made changes Himself. That kind of love gives me a desire to follow Him with everything I have.

That which I first sensed without now resides within - a living Presence, Jesus walking and talking with me. His love, peace and joy flood my soul and bring me happiness and contentment. Circumstances may change but Jesus continues to bathe my soul in His love.

By and large, I haven’t found churches to be understanding of the living Jesus revealed to my heart; they prefer to talk about Him than to walk with Him. But I can say that He has been with me all the way and is every day more precious.

If you need help or need a friend, I recommend this man. All He asks is some room in your heart. It doesn’t matter whether or not you’re religious or have a problem - He’s happy with a stable if He can’t have an inn. He'll change it into a palace.